Action has always been the keyword in my life. I tend to move through life at a pretty good pace. I’m a planner and super organized, and the more information I have, the better I like it.
Cancer just laughs at me. Every day. The sign in the Cancer waiting room says, “Please have a seat…you’ll be here for a while.” And when I go up to the front desk to ask what’s going on or what’s happening next, Cancer hands me a magazine and invites me to sit back down…and wait.
It’s been two weeks since we first heard the words, “It’s Cancer.” In those two weeks, we’ve seen three doctors and John has had three different tests, including the PET scan he had this past Wednesday. That one should answer all of our questions…where is the Cancer, what stage is it, and what’s our first move.
But we won’t have those results until we sit down with his Oncologist on Monday. Two days of waiting down, three more days to go. It feels to me like being suspended in mid-air, straining my toes toward the ground to try to regain my footing but not quite being able to reach. It’s tiring. Of course we’re focused on the outcome we want, which is Stage 3 and not Stage 4, a localized tumor that can be removed surgically and hasn’t spread. Most of the time, we’re focused on that. But, try as I might, it’s inevitable that the “what ifs” start creeping in now and then.
I want to DO something, take action, make a plan, know EXACTLY what’s next.
And Cancer just laughs at me. Not this time, Missy. You have no control here. Please have a seat.
And wait.
Angie said:
Keeping the prayers going here in PA! β€
Julie Anne Jones said:
Thanks, Angie. We feel them.
Julie Anne Jones said:
Thanks so much, Angie. We appreciate it.
Kelly R said:
Continuing to pray for you and your husband. Also, if you want to feel less “suspended” put your feet on the ground and research. Figure out what all of the options are, figure out alternatives, make an action plan. You’ve got a couple of days before you see the doctor, so make them count. Write a list of questions that you both want to ask him. Have a date day. Go to a restaurant that you’ve never been to before. π These days will be over in no time and you’ll have your answers and an action plan. In the interim, you have tons of stuff to do – maybe more stuff than you have time for. π Have a blessed day Julie. We are here for you.
Julie Anne Jones said:
Thanks, Kelly. Great advice and we are having a “cancer free” weekend, doing fun stuff and spending time together. I’ve been doing a lot of research and we’re making some changes now based on what I’m learning.
Courtney said:
Praying for you and your hubby!! May God give you peace and comfort in your waiting and may he give you the best possible outcome.
Sylvie said:
I agree, waiting is tough! ” but they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and they shall walk and not faint.” (Isaiah 40:31). Praying for you and John.
Julie Anne Jones said:
Thanks, Sylvie. I appreciate you and your support and prayers.
Eugenia said:
REACH FOR HIS HAND
The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.β Deuteronomy 31:8 NIV
Whether or not we feel God’s presence when our way seems dark, by faith we know He is there. You can stake our life on His promise: ” I will never leave you or forsake you”. Hebrews 13:5